I know we get used to it. But we shouldn't. We get used to living in back door apartments and not having another view but the windows around. And because there is no view, sooner or later we get used to not looking outside. And because we don't look outside, sooner or later we get used to not opening the curtains. And because we don't open the curtains sooner or later we get used to turning on the light earlier. And by getting used to, we forget the sun, forget the air, and forget the magnitude. We get used to waking up in the morning exasperated because it's time. To rush into breakfast because we are late. To read newspapers while on the bus because we can't spare any time. To eat a sandwich because we can't stop for lunch. To go home because it's already night. To fall asleep in the bus because we are tired. To go to bed early and sleep heavily without having lived the day. We get used to waiting the whole day only to hear over the phone: today i can't make it. We get used to it, so that we don't get scratched by harshness, to preserve ourselves. We get used to it to avoid wounds, bleedings, to spare the heart. We get used to it to spare life. Then little by little we wear out and wear out so much getting used to it, that we lose ourselves.* flip to the wallflower chapter